Leland Shabeland

 I have to stimulate myself.  What's new?  Student are attempting to learn virtually at home on a computer.  It is a disservice to them.  Fucking Covid 19.  I am ready for my ears to stop ringing.  The big ass military train that pulled out of Fort Bragg at the beginning of the week.  Now it is in Leland being broken up into little pieces and sorted into Sunny Point.  It is a never ending prospect.  While this is happening the entire Southeastern part of North Carolina is under quarantine.  We are a huge military whore, a big black hole that the military climbs in and out of.  Nothing else much matters.  When they decide to practice war, we all are in on it.  There is no escape.  So I am blowing smoke, writing without discipline, running off at the mouth.  Why?  Because when this activity is happening interruption occurs on many levels.  I can't blame the military for my tinnitus.  I can blame Carnival for putting the keyboard player sitting on his amp in front of the drum kit.  His cymbals were in my left ear, and now I can't hear those top few tones.  I know when there is a plane, or train, or helicopter, because my left ear rings.  You can't get a straight answer out of anyone, that tinnitus is caused by low frequency sound waves or infrasound.  If you have any hearing loss, then those lost frequencies will ring when there is an infrasound wave around.  You can't hear it either.  You are being doubly assaulted by invisible sound that invades your tactile sensations and makes it difficult to hear.  There is a standing wave in your home that muddies up sound.  The television, musical instruments, or conversation all suffer.  The stereo image of my headphones gets pushed to one side.  It is fucked up.  No musical output, because I can't compete with it.  Never ending bullshit.  We had a nice break from it the previous weeks.  I was able to play the bass, record keyboards, and my Hammond organ.  Now we are in the waiting game.  When will it end.