Compromised Health in America

It is time for me to write again.  I do not have any pressing issue.  Like many I have lots of issues.  They are all mangled up in my head in a stew of frustration.  I have had this sensation before.  It was thirty years ago, and it turned out to be clinical depression.  You can't feel anything.  You suppress your emotions on purpose.  I don't want to feel.  I don't want to feel my mother's feelings.  I like feeling what I feel, but that is rare.  My emotions are suppressed.  There is anxiety and panic.  Whence it comes I don't know.  My musical vision and goals are hidden.  I am empty.  Why are we here?  Some of this is illness.  I have not ruled out Covid.  I would like not to believe this, but with the current news, it is not implausible.  My health history.   it has been a rough half decade.  I have no insurance, so the politics are relevant to me.  A newly appointed conservative Supreme Court Justice could jeopardize The Affordable Care Act, although  I can't afford it.   I am on my own.  My health issues, previously which have been minimal, began with a botched filling by a local dentist.   I left for a cruise ship contract with his failed filling.  The filling remained, but the tooth collapsed with one bite into a chicken bone.  Off to the ship I went.  Months later I developed a painful tooth ache, as the tooth died from infection.  When I visited the dentist in Sydney, an oral surgeon who spoke Russian, he told me the nerve was dead.  He smelled it when he drilled into the tooth.  Swallowing this harmful bacteria of a deteriorating tooth and nerve gives you H. Pylori in your gastrointestinal tract.  I had a good Italian ship doctor, and I received an endoscopy.  They confirmed the presence of H. Pylori, and he prescribed a two week course of double antibiotics.  They worked, and my digestion was cured.  The fungal infections began.  If you don't know antibiotics can cause fungal infections.  Like Covid 19 antibiotics can exacerbate a non symptomatic fungal condition.  If you have a previous fungal infection, topical or internal, antibiotics will make it grow.  This fungal infection chose my urinary tract.  Many bladder infections later and the intense pain of kidney stone, the prostate enters the equation.  Thus emerges the dichotomy of bacterial AND fungal infections.  They can occur simultaneously.  You take antibiotics for the bacterial infection, and they give you a fungal infection.  You take anti-fungal medication for a long time to quell the yeast, and it never goes away.  I have had it for over fifteen years.  I got it on my feet from standing on coral in the sea in Cozumel.  I am stuck with both again.  I didn't understand it until now.  Our yard is a jungle, and that is why our property appealed to my parents.  They like the yard.  I work in this yard.  I cut the hedge.  I plant a garden.  I plant potted flowers.  I have had my hands deep in cow manure for the last five years.  I have had my hands in the earth's soil constantly.  Starkly I remember when I inhaled fungal spores.  My lungs always had been clear and strong, even after smoking a few Dunhills.  In one fell swoop my lungs were infected.  This was two years ago.  I was bitten by an orb weaver spider on the shoulder, and this bite developed into an abscess.  It became a pus-filled volcano and erupted onto my bathroom mirror.  It took two months for this to heal with no drugs.  The bacterial infection stayed in my body.  I developed a nasty red rash on my wrists and the backs of my hands.  It was not from waxing the dolphin.  It was bacterial.  Gastrointestinal fungal infections exhibit as "leaky gut."    This is caused by candida overgrowth, which makes your tissue porous.  You leak from various places, not just your gut.  Fluid leaks into your abdominal cavity.  You feel leaky down under,  hot, wet, and uncomfortable in the crotch.  I stumbled upon a New Zealand medical study, which accurately describes the various fungal infections.  I am certain I have one or a combination.  It was comforting, except that the symptoms I have had have been similar to Covid 19.  Fatigue.  Tiredness.  Lack of energy.   Joint and muscle aches.  Stiff neck and enlarged lymph nodes.  I have been aware of all of this for at least six months but was not sure it was not a pinched nerve or a leaky blood vessel in my brain.  Covid 19 creates leaky blood vessels.  I have had bubbling in each ear.  The most disturbing symptom has been weakness and numbness on my right side suggesting a small stroke.  I gambled with no health care.  If I did have health insurance, the protocol would have been tests.  CT Scan.  MRI.  Spinal Tap.  When they finally confirmed the fungus, they would prescribe a simple antifungal medication that would cost less then $100.00.  Why should we contribute $10,000.00 to the medical establishment, when a simple, wise, farmer's doctor could heal you in a few months?  I took Cipro for the kidney infection, and it cured the bacterial infection on my skin.  I had to begin anti-fungals again.  floconazole is bad for your liver so no alcohol.  I have done this course twice before, and the first time I took it it healed me completely in two months.  My mobility and sensation returned.  Freely I could move again, and I took advantage of this renewed health and worked on our house.  Then I got it again, recurring it seems.   I don't know why, but I do know this.  Fungus is deadly, and fungus grows best in hot wet weather.  With Global Warming or its more politically correct term, "Climate Change," things are hotter than before.  There is no gaslighting this truth.  The American South has tropic during the summer.  Move the equator up to compensate for a bunch of white men burning up the planet.  What are the benefits of a warmer climate?  Vladimir Putin dearly wants the shipping passage through the North Pole open.  Hotter temperatures are melting the polar ice caps, and glaciers are falling off into the sea.  Russian ships now are traversing this industrial shipping lane.  If the interior temperature of the human body is 98.6, imagine what the context of disease is with the temperature of our external environment the same?  If organisms live most aptly inside the human body at this temperature, a similar temperature outside would aid the proliferation of these organisms.  Spew it out, and the temperature is the same on the outside.  (I am speculating)  The reason for climate variance is defeated.  Cold temperatures are necessary for the sustenance of the earth.  It did not used to be 100 degrees in North Carolina.  Never did it reach this temperature ever during the summer.  It is moderate, and often it was in the 70's on Christmas day.  NEVER did we have two straight months of 100+ degree weather.  It is unprecedented, two full months of heat and humidity.  While human beings hate this scenario, what will benefit?  FUNGUS.  Upon returning to North Carolina I remember walking into the front yard after a fresh rain and taking a deep breath.  Instead of inhaling clean, fresh oxygen, I inhaled fungus.  You can smell it.  Fungus.  Moss.  Algae.  The Green Gungee.  I spent five hours today pressure washing this slime off my driveway.  No longer can I put my unprotected hands in the earth's soil.  When I am on my knees planting in the ground, like Covid 19, I must wear a mask to keep fungal spores out of my lungs.  It has been incredibly difficult, and my difficulty is not just my own health.  Partly I am responsible for the health of my mother.  She does not understand, when I do not perform to my usual standard.  I have been dragging, and I am not positive it has not been Covid 19.