Genetics and Freedom

There must be something to blood, especially family blood. There is one thing I have to protest in this great genetic plan, and that is the heredity of emotion. The family unit or bloodline by nature passes down genes from one generation to the next. Is this really a good thing? How about we start anew from a fresh prospective? What happens if your father is Jeffrey Dammer or Superman? Do you really deserve to inherit that genetic information against your own will? What if it becomes a burden, complicating your own goals and feelings? Especially living in close proximity to those you love, you have no choice it seems being the living receiver of those transmitted feelings. Was this meant to be? Was this an ability God gave parents to discipline their children, emotional manipulation? I have seen it. I saw it in my studies in music education. You must learn how to manipulate your student's emotions, like a giant theatrical production. This didn't settle well with me. The first time I realized, my cooperating teacher told me I had to purposely 'get mad' at the students to make them be quiet. I had to invoke a negative emotion against my will to be able to discipline them. " What a drag," I thought. We are intelligent adults, and I feel we should be able to choose our own emotions. I guess the genetic plan pretty much usurps that. That would be total freedom, even freedom from oppression by our enemies. If there were no connective bond between humans, then no one could be controlled. Was this God's plan? I am growing to think not, and that Satan has a good deal to do with it. My own quest for freedom in Fayettenam is just to be allowed to feel the way I think I should. I don't want to be controlled by my body, other people's emotions, or my emotions. I am grown enough to understand what I think and feel. I understand myself. To know a man is to know yourself. The problem is, I rarely am allowed in modern society this privilidge. We work for others. We live with others. We play with others. All the while their feelings and needs and goals are being projected. By this commonality of emotion we are exposed to it on a minutely basis. If extra sensory perception is not real, then there is no way we can perceive these things with our minds. It has to be "vibe" or emotion, chemical reactions in our brain that produce eletrical waves. Bombarding electro-magnetic waves can and do change recipients feelings after long periods of time. Well, I don't dig it, and I don't want it. I have NO desire to think or feel what anybody else does. That is not freedom. Freedom to me is not enough money to live how you want, because this mental phenomenon would still exist. Freedom is the privilidge to allow human beings to pursue their own goals and feel their own desires. I "remember" how I am supposed to feel with my brain, so I can keep extraneous negative emotions at arms length, but it takes much energy. Self preservation. I know when emotions are not my own, because after 43 years I finally figured it out. I just don't get to exercise that privildidge very often.