What Sex Am I?

My father died a year ago May 6th.  It has been over a year since his passing, and although we have grieved his death I must move on.  That is if those of us remaining want to stay in the running.  So many people in America are tossing in the cloth, and I don't mean Catholic priests.  Easily it is forgotten these priests were practicing Jerry Sandusky's moves with their own alter boys.  If one reflects upon the psychological health of America, we find a dismal remnant of our former glory.  It is disgusting.  The reasons are varied, but mostly it is because of the risen oligarchy.  The rich grabbed the reins and galloped America to hell.  Even candidly as I remember my Episcopal upbringing and education from the University of North Carolina Chapel Hill (also a remnant of its former glory), and even as I try to live a positive, moral, and ethical life, I realize the majority of America is evil.  Evil is a strong word, so I will rephrase.  The majority of America, because of the lure of capitalism, are not honest or fair to their fellow men.  Capitalism is  being ruthless, getting as much as you can, canning it, and sitting on that can.  We have been pulled down the sewer by Harvey Weinstein, Bill Cosby, and the rest because of the simple weakness of sexual impropriety.  When did it become probable that wealth earns you sexual satisfaction?  My friends it is the oldest profession for a reason, and always you will have to pay for it one way or another.  These ridiculous men, who have been incredibly influential in American culture, believe that notoriety and power earn you the right to behave as a sexual predator.  I can think of nothing more adolescent.  I have learned over the last year  many people I admire behave as immature irrational children.  I have learned to separate my admiration for their intelligence and art.  Often they are mislead, selfish, and narcissistic.  This after all is how one gets ahead in a Capitalist socioeconomic system.  One must kiss ass, take it up the ass, break the law, and abandon moral and ethical standards to become wealthy in America.  I have forgotten this, how to be ruthless.  I'm not sure it ever was a part of my vocabulary.  I was taught to be nice, and that means telling the truth, respecting your neighbors, and trying to abide by  ten commandments.  That is difficult, because America evidently no longer is a Christian nation.  Every tangible cultural ritual that has shored up America over its relatively short life has been destroyed.  Simply it is Orwellian.  George was right.  Big Brother has taken over America, and now we know how.  Communism never has ceased to be the enemy of the United States.  Ronnie did tear down that wall, and it fell in Berlin, but Communism staunchly has stayed around.  Now an ex KGB operative with a cunning knowledge of statesmanship has sanctioned the America President.  It couldn't be more obvious, and the entire country is figiting in  disbelief.  It is the only way he could have won the American presidency, and this will decide honest democracy will continue in America.  With this transformation into a Communist state, the rights and quality of life of the middle and lower classes has faltered as has their economic mobility.  To be happy in America today one must be rich.  You must buy your happiness, because the things that once provided have been sacrificed for the wealth of this risen oligarchy.  Clean air, clean water, and an electricity-free atomsphere have become a distant memory.  Our air, which is necessary for human survival, is wrought with aberrant electricity.  Every sense in the human body is being bombarded with manipulative murderous electricity.  Why else would there be no hope for the majority of people who choose suicide?  How can one change wrong on such a global level?   This influence is so far-reaching, so massive in volume, and so unrecognized and misunderstood from effective lobbying, why stick around?  You really have to want it, to continue to live.  Yes, our original immigrating founding fathers had a tough time too.  The Lost Colony didn't make it.  It takes money.  In America now, unlike its original existence providing sustenance for native Americans, we must buy our own survival.  We must buy water.  We must buy clean air.  We must buy happiness, because our earth has been turned into a huge dump.  The world landfill full of the oligarchies' trappings coercing, stealing, and manipulating their way to financial prominence with a blatant and alarming disregard for the health of our Earth.  Truly we must be in the the last days, when each and every day is a fight for our own survival against the established infrastructure meant to support us.  Wages are stagnant, and they will continue to be except for the upper class.  Each time our government raises prices for utilities, insurance, or medical care we get poorer.  Each time a cable company, a cellular carrier, or an insurance company raises their rates, Americans are pushed further into poverty.  Further into poverty we will go until Americans see it and disagree.  A probable revolution.  Poverty is one thing, but the invasion of your psychological sanctity?  Big Brother.  As I am sitting right here right now listening to my new Teac turntable, the needle inexplicably is skipping.  It is of no consequence that it sits on a huge antique bureau atop a hardwood floor on the second floor of our house.  How is it possible that anything could disrupt the stylus on that weighted tonearm?  That is because it is being disrupted through the air by sound waves, massive, long wave length, low frequency sound waves created by General Electric.  It is fitting this one hundred year old company is failing.  Aside from their assault on our mental health through massive pollution, I am mystified by the assault on my humanity.  Is it really American to have to defend one's sexuality?  Never before has this been a public issue.  Never before did being gay become a platform for notoriety.  Tell Bruce that transforming yourself into a woman during your late life crisis doesn't change the reality of who you have become.  You still are a burnt out athlete like many who have trouble reinventing themselves during old age.  You are just a burnt out fag who likes to dress up in women's clothing.  I have nothing against homosexuality.  Like Queen Latifah says in the film "Living Out Loud," homosexual men possibly feel more than straight men.  Often they are more gentle.  As such it is possible they have more of an affinity for the expressive arts than straight men.  Cole Porter.  Pyotr Tchaikovsky.  Leonard Bernstein.  Aaron Copland.  Who really cares what their sexual preference is?  It didn't dominate their lives, their homosexuality.  Often they prefer BOTH sexes.  What bothers me is that because I am single, because I have not bought into the marriage sacriment, I must defend my heterosexuality.  It seems because I am not having it reinforced visually daily by a worker, another person responsible for showing the world that I am straight, that I must assert my heterosexuality in a much more powerful way.  Was this what God intended?  Is this why I am supposed to get married, to keep away the gay men?  When I do indulge in my own heterosexuality by allowing myself to remember that there is an innate biological nature that provides this for me, I feel challenged by the norm in American society.  Truly the LGBT movement has made great strides, undermining the human psyche, the ID, and our animal instincts.  Throughout time they have been extremely comforting in times of duress, when we are so heavy laden that allowing God to step in provide comfort is welcome.  It is the nature of God's love, and yet today we no longer have this comfort.  We must doubt our own biological nature.  We have taught our children to be vain, narcissistic, and juvenile.  They have been immune from any school of hard knocks that built America.  Get in line Bruce. P.S.  Not to mention that FB sold out in a microsecond to Russian mob interests to make their fortune.  Is it possible to say, "I'm sorry" for selling out the American people?